Inevitable

"To love is one kind of suicide"
 Jaques Lacan

​If you come close to me
I will break
If your love touches me
I will not stand her power
The fingerprint will become crack
and I will shatter
The pain will become a red tear
It's inevitable
How to stay away
safe from the danger
before the first drop of possibillity falls
before hope becomes an ocean
that will drown me
How to step back?
How to gag my heart?
How to cease my thoughts?
How to forget my desire
and with it myself?
How to protect myself
and how to avoid you?
So I let myself go 
and I accept to pay the price
that looks like a priviledge
I let myself break
to lose myself
inside you
to give all of me
and keep nothing for me
not even me
I let myself go
because it's unevitable to love
even if it causes me pain
I let myself go
because love without pain
is just an illusion

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“Do you know the best thing about broken hearts?
They can only really break once
the rest is just scratches.”
― Carlos Ruiz Zafón